hardcore emo

dat dread feeling i have been having all week last week
came to its breaking point today
if yesterday was a crack, today it's a full blown
suddenly everything seems to much to handle

i feel so overwhelmed
i fel so tired
i feel so alone
i feel like not having anyone to talk to
i feel like doing nothing but sleeping
i have no drive to even get out of my bed
n i can't pinpoint the root of this miserable drowning feeling

if Pu3 were within reach she would take me n Muni n Najwa out, mayb we go celebrate my 2nd or 3rd 'bday' at hartamas
if Nana were within reach, i would be sleeping over at her room, sharing stories n gossips
if Ajie were within reach, i would take the train to her place n stay there for few days
if he were within reach, i would call n he will be there n we would sit by the pool n talk
if home were within reach, i'll be on the first bus back
if my lil sanctuary were within reach, i would be there
*sighhhh*

IFs....

badly need a REAL hug :(